so much trust in all your eyes' Journal

my god chris... you fucking loser you have one too

anyways.. i'm not feeling so hot right now... cameron and i are chatting... kinda bringing me down but if it makes him feel just a bit better it's worth it... i still love him... i don't know how much but at least to an extent where i love him as a friend still and i wish all the happiness in the world upon him... unfortunately he seems rather depressed and perhaps sucidal... poor guy... i don't pity him... sometimes i just miss him...

today i hung out with ben... he's not that bad of a boyfriend though sometimes it's not great... then again our relationship like this has just begun and i'm not about to make my time wasted.. we'll see how things go... i like him a lot... he smells nice too